Joseph.

Lets update the dilemma to what it is. I will be as straight as I can be, with the definitions you have allowed me.

And


I will not be traced into a corner.


And


I'll be honest.

This life can be fucking disgusting.











It seems, I have lost the light in my eyes.


I do not know if that means I have lost my innocence. But it is a crown I cannot give to my king. I am greatly saddened. And the water has turned red. I do not know what that means.












Father forgive me. It is hard for me to retain your light, it always was a struggle.


I believe you can consume me, stir wisdom inside me, but I am unsure of whether or not, this is a bad soul.
I am unsure of what this soul is.
You know, your eyes are all powerful.
I need your answer.