Wednesday, July 27, 2011

First breathe I took tonight.


Sweet Most Noble King.
Oh my sweet joy.
Your peace fills my heart.

It can be still.

May you be glorified in our lives.

Give us thirsty hearts.

And let no evil concur us.
Break down the walls that temptation affords.
And speak out your name.
So we can hear you now,
So we can be protected.
My dear, dear savior.

Give us the silence of protection.
And a song of reconciliation.
My dear, dear savior.



I want to fly, can you take me far away? Give me a star to reach for. Tell me what it takes and Ill go so high. Ill go so high my feet wont touch the ground.Stitch my wings and pull the strings. I bought these dreams that all fall down. 

The Truth, Sure. A Polygraph, NEVER!



No matter far we go, its all a fragment of our home...

Oh Wonderland, Where is your rabbit hole?
Oh Blackbird, can you remember when evil didn't always tug away at your heart?

Can you remember when the lies didn't create disaster, and were concurred by heroes, here to initiate our happily ever after. Where illusions were harmless and not the work of the cults and false prophets.

False Prophets like me.
Fools like me, will always ache. They will always dream of autumn days in fields of grass, and they bleed when they have go anywhere, because they can only floor it. Fools like me, will always ache. Just dream, they all tell me, just be a little more romantic, or you'll forget to live, they all tell me.

Well you sure didn't forget to live did you now.
You were so busy living, you forgot to die.
You thought your life was yours.
Now you cry out to the Lord,
Asking him for a deeper relationship.
Deeper you say?

Well we can go deeper, we can go to all those lies you told yourself, in order to have exactly what you wanted. Oh, you fool, you knew. You knew all along what was happening. You were taught the truth as a young child. No, that is an error.
You were introduced.

Breathe deep you fool. Your machine ran out of chemical x. Now the blood will run deep, because all the parts are broken. Red syrup runs down cold steel corridors, and out the rotting pipes. The cold blood stains your jeans and shirt, and you lie to everyone, telling them it was accidental. The very thing that we were all worried about, it took you. And all that darkness is held on your eyes, and they aint pure no more. And all those lies you told won't hold the water in your eyes; Cause my friend, your heart is a-throbbin.

You ask to go deeper with God, and you know where he is going to go. Cause he is the truth.

And GOD was the one who made the rain. And he decided we needed to die.

The truth is, your heart aches for him Daniel. And your'e all brokenhearted all over the place. The truth is, you know what's right and wrong. You know how to speak slow, and listen close. The truth is, baby aint gonna save you from this one. The truth is, you can't breath without his voice, and he is pumpin your heart, and puttin air in your lungs.

And, yes this will haunt you. There isn't anyway around that. These memories hang heavy right now.
These memories make you feel like you'll never be alright.
Breathe deep you fool. God loves you.

God loves you, and thats why he's here. And God is good and God is truth, and that is why he burns.
And he surpasses all of this. Even though it makes NO sense at times.
Your world aint gonna change like you like it, by saying a simple prayer. Your'e holding her by her hair. You are holding her as you slip away.

And she's sweeter than honey. Sweeter than fresh air. But she ain't sweeter than God.
She aint sweeter than God...
But she sure is sweet.




Every facet of your mind holds her. Every breath holds her name.



My sister, give me a ticket. I need my salvation. I need my rescue.
I need to burn down and be broken.
Cause this construct I built, It's made by a child. These machines don't run. Your engine has no fuel, and you are floating in the wake of Psalv-Muron. And you know where Aslands Land is. And he told you its time for you to go. These ruins, this bat, this is no kingdom for you. 
No your kingdom, has strong men. Cause you cant do this alone. And your kingdom has a strong wife. Cause you can't do this alone. And you hold a torch in this kingdom, cause you know damn well that bat won't slaughter them.

Not with no bat.




There's no more secrets anymore, anyway. All the cards have been laid out. And your poker face was terrible to begin with. 

Let go deeper.
Somewhere real deep where you know it's safe to go.

Daniel, he is going to take care of you.
He got your back, through and through.
Yeah, you weren't meant to last.


But your'e gonna last through it all. And he's gonna keep all those promises, and bless you still.
God loves you.
Keep your voice golden torchbearer.






[No Release is a super sweet rare find by the way, Brian Fallon wrote this when he was 15]


Monday, July 11, 2011

Keep your silver to yourself, I need steel, cause it will pierce my skin!

Okay. Fuck.

We gotta go deeper.

Umm, I dont know how to say this, but...

We never went deep enough.



Do you feel it Lord? Do you feel this darkness inside of me? Arnt you inside of me to? Wasn't I in your waters. Haven't we been one? What ever happened to that?

Does it protrude through your dreams too? Or is just me?

Oh Lord, how alone I feel at times.
                                     Have you been around? Are my eyes always closed?

Why am I such a child. I do not wish to be. Still nothing moves. 

DID I MISS YOU?

How could I ever pull you deeper into myself. Deeper than this sin.

I-I just want you to be one with me, to never leave me. Not to be all fucked up like this. All the time.
Pull the cloak over my head. Take me to the darker room.

Look I do not care if it is essentially torture.
Just press through all my guts and my "essential" organs... and place yourself in me.

Maybe it is a surgery I would have to do myself.

So here is the Gospel.
You reconciled me to the father, by your death.
You left me with the holy spirit.

Nothing is impossible by the hands of the father.

Oh, Lord, my patience grows thin. How much more brokenness is permissible?
How much more before you take me. I admit how weak I am.
THE MORE WE WAIT THE MORE WEAK WE GROW WITHOUT YOU.
THE MORE TERRIFIED WE BECOME.
the more alone we become. At this distance, how can you not miss us?


And just when I get back to the daytime, its night again.
Just as you said, I denied you three times before the rooster crowed.
Jesus, I don't know if I would die for you.
I don't know.

And if thats the case, why should you take me with you.

Without you, if you ever take your hand off my shoulder, my heart falls apart.

It just crumbles, and he gets another ribbon, he counts them, he has counted all of them, and presses them deep into me. He punctures everything. Everything. He won't leave anything alone. Anything.



Oh Jesus Christ, can you hear me?
My words might not surmount to much, but can you see my heart?

Blackbird, can you now see how spiritually weak I am?




Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Words from somewhere in my heart.

Hey where have you gone?
When did you hold all my dreams, and what the fuck were yours?

Break the barrier, I have not seen any licence for this kind of behavior. I have seen quivering hands and silent tears as they would sit on my wooden fence.

But I will block you out. To go back into my place.

My special little place, no my friend you can't go there..

You would die for me? Really?


See I have my walls too...


I'm sorry that I do.

Thats what I'm always sorry for, I think.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Just need you to know.


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Lover lover, you're a bloody mess,
Still reaching deeper to leave whats left,
Leave my mother with love on your lips
We took your drink,
Then betrayed you with a kiss.

Lover lover, listen to my secrets,
I fear there is something darker here
Than just you and me, It isn't clear
It grows like a cancer,
Invading the miserable life I live

Oh lover lover, Im not sure of it,
Its making me queasy to look at it,
You take me in to easily
I'm just confused at the 'love' aspect

Oh lover lover, I finally feel the sting
Of stealing that scorpion's gleam
Oh lover lover, Ima gonna spill out everything
Cause you just need to know
Oh lover lover, you just need to know


Oh lover lover, listen to me sing
I cant seem to get you out of my mind
The more I know you darling
The more I can sing
Let me tell you everything.


See, I'm getting a lot thinner,
No I aint fastin for no sinners,
I just stay up all night watchin static
Thinkin bout the spiders in my attic
Wastin my life away

Lover lover, I wanted to die
See, it gets worse in the day
Cant seem to get the dirt out of mind
I didn't ask you to be this kind.

Oh lover lover, listen to me sing
I cant seem to get you out of my mind
The more I know you darling
The more I can sing
Let me tell you everything.